mistakes you knew you were making

so monday was just about the worst day i've experienced in a long time. i feel like because of this mistake he has made, everythings just going to go downhill. but i cant let it because he is all that i want. im incomplete without him.
mycrayonheart: i feel like for this to work we need to see eachother soon
whathisMEANStoME: we cant
mycrayonheart: why
whathisMEANStoME: because we need this time apart
mycrayonheart: why
whathisMEANStoME: because i still need to fix this
whathisMEANStoME: and until i do i am not to see you
whathisMEANStoME: because i dont deserve it
whathisMEANStoME: and even afterwards i still shouldnt
mycrayonheart: what if you just dont fix it
mycrayonheart: stop
mycrayonheart: of course you should
mycrayonheart: its gonna be the same as it always was i know it
mycrayonheart: babyy
mycrayonheart: breebree
mycrayonheart: fkjvdkjvhakjhgae
mycrayonheart: i love you
whathisMEANStoME: i love you too...
mycrayonheart: ...
mycrayonheart: what was the dot dot dot for
whathisMEANStoME: idk
whathisMEANStoME: im just not happy when i say it like i used to be
whathisMEANStoME: it hurts when i say it
mycrayonheart: why
whathisMEANStoME: because its not right
whathisMEANStoME: even if i say with as much heart as i possibly could
whathisMEANStoME: it can never make up for what i did
mycrayonheart: do you mean it like you always have
whathisMEANStoME: yes
mycrayonheart: well then the hurt will go away once were good again
whathisMEANStoME: will it?
mycrayonheart: il make it.
mycrayonheart: and it will for me too
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